I've noticed that it seems like every Wednesday I hit a wall. I hadn't been to a Wednesday night church service in several years because of college classes and then being lazy after graduation, but I've started going again this year and I'm loving it. Even though I know that I'll learn something, that God will move, I still fight going. Today was a hard day because of emotions, too much talk of babies, leftover junk that wasn't resolved from the day before, etc and I've just been a basket case. The weather was gloomy and rainy, to add to my less than "sunshiny" mood. I came home from work and tried on my new rain boots and decided to crank up some worship music and dance through the house with Layla. Life has been an emotional roller coaster since June and I'm ready for breakthrough! I'm praising God through this storm! Quite perfectly, this song came up on Pandora while I was running through the house with the dog:
Hillsong: Desert Song
This is my prayer in the desert
And all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in the hunger in me
My God is a God who provides
Verse 2:
And this is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flames
Chorus:
And I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon forged against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here
Verse 3:
And this is my prayer in the battle
And triumph is still on it's way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand
Bridge:
All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship
Verse 4:
This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be empited again
The seed I've recieved I will sow
I serve and AWESOME God and He meets my needs even when I least expect it. He never ceases to amaze me. I have a reason to sing and a reason to worship. He is worthy of all my praise and of my life and I am so thankful for His love. I am even thankful for this storm in my life because there is sunshine when the storm is over and God will still be there with open arms.
Amanda,
ReplyDeleteI know that it sounds trite when people tell you that they know what you're going through. But, I really think that I do. I remember being so broken when the doctor told me that I wouldn't be able to have children. That had been my dream for a lifetime. Pastor Bullock was preaching a series on women in the Bible, and Sunday after Sunday, he kept talking about barren women. Of course, I should have gleaned hope from this, because God opened their wombs. But I was so full of misery, I didn't think it was possible for God to do that for me. But it was! Now I have my two little miracles and I thank God for them daily. I am praying for you during this time. I know that God knows what he's doing, and He will grant you the desires of your heart. Just stay strong!
Thank you, Whitney! You've brought me to tears, but that's a good thing :) Thank you so very much for your prayers. I know that God's plan and timing are perfect. We're giving up on having a plan of our own and are letting God take over. I hope that decision takes away stress and draws us even closer as a couple and closer to the Lord. I'm so happy for you that God granted you the desire of your heart not once, but twice!
ReplyDeleteHmmm... I was just telling my Dad that I needed new rain boots. Maybe they would have the added effect of making my attitude as good as yours. :)
ReplyDeleteJamie, Roses had some for $15. I bought mine there and then Hannah told me she'd gotten me some for my belated birthday gift. I ended up selling the Roses pair to a co-worker, but maybe they still have some? Wish I'd known and I would have given them to you!
ReplyDeleteWonderful post, Amanda! I love that you had your rainboots on and danced through the house with your dog! If that can't cheer a person up, I don't know what can. :-D
ReplyDeleteThanks, Callie! It sure did the trick! :)
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