Friday, January 21, 2011

Homecoming and Discovery

Alex gets home from Texas around midnight tonight and I'm so excited! He also found out that he doesn't have to go back for another two week stint like he was originally told. Great news all around! As for that to-do list that I wanted to tackle while he was gone, I've completed 3 of the 7 items and have made a small dent in my office/war zone. I'm just pumped up about life right now!

God has been teaching me many things the past few weeks. I've let go of some baggage, let go of fear and bad attitudes. These breakthroughs have given me such energy and new life that I literally can't stop smiling! I'm really longing to understand God in a deeper way. During a conversation with a friend last night, we talked about the different types of relationships that are all wrapped up in a relationship with God. I tend not to see him as a lover, but more like a powerful ruler that we must obey or else we suffer consequences. Sure, there should be obedience and reverence and fear there, but God is also gentle, loving, kind, slow to anger and abounding in love. He is our best friend, our daddy, our teacher, healer, lover, savior, and so much more! I want God to show me more of Himself in these different lights so that I can grow in my understanding of who He is. It amazes me to think about how limited our human understanding is compared to the Creator of the universe. Even if I spent every minute of the rest of my life having a conversation with God, I'd still never fully understand Him. It is crazy to me how He can be everywhere all at once and listen to a billion prayers at once and know who each one of us is deep inside and the plans He has for our lives.

Several people have spoken into my life recently and have given me courage to believe in myself as a worship leader and to pursue God in a new way. To be honest, I've been a huge slacker when it comes to reading my Bible. Singing songs to God comes much more easily and naturally to me, and doesn't require much sacrifice on my part. I've known for a long time that in order for me to grow I was going to have to resist distraction and give God my precious time. Even though I don't always come away with some great new revelation, I'm still finding myself enjoying the moment. As I read, I anticipate discovering a new piece of God's heart in His word and it's exciting! I am so thankful to those who have been bold enough to send me a text message out of the blue to lift me up, give me focus and challenge me to allow God deeper into my life. I'm privileged to be part of a worship team that cheers one another on as we grow and pursue the glory of God. One of my favorite songs right now is I Have Found by Kim Walker. The chorus represents what is bursting out of my heart:

You are all I want, You are all I need
Everything my heart could hope for
We are longing for the glory of the Lord
'Cause we know there's so much more

Here's a link to the song on Youtube. I challenge you to give God more of your time, to look at Him from a new perspective, to give Him the opportunity to reveal Himself to you in a new way. I don't want to get to heaven and have only a minute understanding of who God is. I know there is so much more in store of myself and for other Christians if we would just seek Him. I think God will blow us away by His glory, His power, by the sheer intensity of being in His presence, if we would only pursue Him passionately! I'm so excited to be along for this journey that God is leading me on! Want to join me?


  1. Thank you for posting this, Amanda - your desire to know the Lord better is an encouragement to me as well!

  2. You're welcome, Callie! I'm glad you were encouraged!